“You don’t know the Lord intimately”.
A lie I had heard repeated over and over again in my heart the past two weeks. They so perfectly aligned with what I was struggling through in this new season. This time of getting to know a new side of the fathers heart. A new side of his face. But I didn’t yet know this new part of his heart yet, and sometimes I struggled feeling as though I don’t know him at all anymore. Confession: Sometimes I still struggle.
“How dare you think you can led others into a life of intimacy with the father, when you don’t even know him yourself”.
Another lie, that felt like a twisted knife, dodging into the deepest places of my heart. I first realized the wording of these lies when I was snuggled up on my couch, spending my last few minutes before leaving for work, just sitting with the Father.
“You don’t”
“how dare you”.
That was someone accusing me, and that certainly wasn’t the voice of my papa. My warrior spirit kicked in, and I counter attacked these lies with truth.
“How dare YOU come at me, a daughter of the King, with those ratchet lies! I do know my father intimately, and he knows me!”
It’s then I felt my father, drawing me up into his strong arms. Welcoming me to rest my head upon his chest, so I could hear his heartbeat. I could feel him playing with my hair, as he spoke over me “I love you… I love you…I love you…I love you”. Over and over and over again. The steady rhythm filling me with strength.
A few days later, as I sit sharing this story with my roommate, a grand revelation comes over me. “I love you” was his heart beat! He is love. His heartbeat is love, and it oozes out love for us, his beloved children!!!!! How blessed are we, when we draw near to him, and receive this great and glorious gift of love! Draw near to hear the unique beat of his heart pounding out ‘I love you…I love you…I love you’ just for you.
“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!” 1st John 3:1
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