Dream bigger, Beloved.

Dream bigger, Beloved.

“Dream lofty dreams, and as you dream, so shall you become. Your vision is the promise of what you shall one day be; your ideal is the prophecy of what you shall at last unveil.” – James Allen

Dream: An idea or vision that is created in your imagination.

We tend to under spiritualize our dreams and imaginations. Do you not know that God is the very one who gave us this extravagant gift! He places kingdom dreams inside of us, and entrusts us to carry them out. He puts His dreams and desires in our hearts. Do you realize how insane this is?! Jesus told us that we are His body. We are His body here on earth. It is through us that he accomplishes His glorious will! It is into you that the Father desires to infuse His dreams. 

 “Now you are the body of Christ, and individual members of it.” 1 Corinthians 12:27

Dreaming is such a beautiful and terrifying thing to do. To combine your thoughts, desires and deepest longings, all twisted up into this mental photograph of what your life could be. What you could accomplish. Where you could go. But there is always something staring right back into our faces when we allow our hearts to be free to dream.

F E A R

We're afraid. Afraid we’ll fail, afraid our dreams might not come true. Afraid to step out out of tightly knitting comfort zones. We look at our life, who we are, at our lack of money and resources, and we stand frozen in fear. It’s risky. We’re filled with so much doubt. But fear is a filthy liar! Fear holds us back from accomplishing the very things the Father created for us to do! 

People tell us to dream smaller. Be realistic, safe.  “Go to college, get married and settle down with a job that will make you enough money to be finically stable.” That’s how our society tells us to live our lives. I’m not saying that these are bad things. But what if He created us for more then this status quo??? 

The entire bible is filled with story after story of people dreaming big dreams. Dreams that were so far beyond themselves, God would have to come through in order for them to happen. The entire New Testament is filled with page after page of Christ’s followers living crazy, radical, and adventurous lives! So what happened to the church, that we settled into such comfortable, easy, predicable life’s? When did we stop dreaming? We did we start settling? 

Last week, the teacher of our “Dangerous Jesus” class, packed all thirty plus of us CGA students into a small closed room and told us to sit down. In his hand he held a full water bottle, with the cap on. While talking to us, he used exaggerated hand motions, swinging the filled water bottle all around. He said that the water in the bottle represented the Holy Spirit inside of us. But we put limitations on Him, because we live our lives “with the cap on”. 

Then he opened the water bottle, and the whole atmosphere of the room changed. Suddenly he held in his hands a lot of power. 

It clicked inside of me, and I gained an even deeper freedom to dream big. Jesus is living inside of me! He has given me the Holy Spirit! I hold the Kingdom of God within me! I am a daughter of the King of Kings! This gives me every right to dream big, crazy, radical and insane dreams! Sometimes I just sit with Jesus and we dream together. I think I dream pretty big. But I just feel His joyful laugher wash over me, as he tells me “Dream bigger, beloved! …  Bigger! … Bigger still!”

So, I challenge you too, child of the most high God, 

Dream bigger.

Photo credit: Three Nails Photography. 

    

Rise up Warriors - There's a War to fight

 Rise up Warriors - There's a war to fight!

"be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm."  -Ephesians 6"10-18 ESV

I have walked the streets of a third world, african country. As one of very few white girls among them, I stick out like a sore thumb. I felt the hot stares of bitter, angry and desperate men. 

I've heard the screams of a demon possessed women, as the name of Jesus was preached in Uganda.

I've looked into the eyes of young men, homeless and hopeless on the streets of Nicaragua, as they explained that sniffing glue was the only way to make their hunger pains go away. 

I've walked outside of the airport to see camouflaged men, holding AK-47's.

I have sat and listened to the painful cries of young American girls, as they tell me of the pain so great within them that they want to hurts themselves. I sit and listen, and I wanna scream at satan to stay away from my girls.

I watch as our young men live in the bondage of lust and pornography. 

I've held countless children, abandoned and alone. They have to one to take care of them. No one to love them. 

I've sat and listened to the heart wrecking story of how a widow lost all of her children to HIV/AIDS. 

The stories go on and on.

I have forever been wrecked for the comfortable, american lifestyle.

I have been called to fight.

To fight for those who have yet meet Jesus as Savior. For the weak, The hurting, the brokenhearted. 

To fight as a mighty warrior of Christ Jesus.

We are in a war, whether you chose to acknowledge it, or not. Since the moment you took your first breath, there has been a war over your soul.

"Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour." -1st Peter 5:8

Last fall, I went out for a run. alone in the woods, along a two track road. It was there that the Lord spoke very clearly to me that: 

“The gates of hell will know your name.

 You’re going to be a warrior for my Kingdom,

And you’re going to be a serious threat to the domain of darkness”.

I was pumped! Put me in the game coach, Lets go!

 Later, the weight of this new calling hit me. “Holy shit. what just happened?!” 

I’m just this young girl. I struggle with fear. I struggle with weakness.  

“Um, are you sure you have the right girl here, God?” 

I called my friend, and told him everything that just happened.

 I was freaking out.

 He just laughed at me.

 then starting pouring into me sweet words of life, and words from the lord, on what being a warrior looked like for me.  

Lemme tell you. It looked vastly different then how I thought it was suppose to look.

I WAS JUST SUPPOSE TO LOVE.

 TO LOVE WITH THE SUPERNATURAL, UNEXPLAINABLE LOVE OF JESUS.

“In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.” 1 John 4:10-11 

He’s calling you. He’s raising you up. Why were you placed in this earth, in the very place you find yourself today? Why were you blessed and given the resources that you have? Why do you have the gifting’s that you do? 

What does being a warrior for the Kingdom look like for your life?

Because, You are a Warrior, beloved. 

You carry the power and authority of Jesus Christ the Lord God almighty himself within you! 

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

Let us be done with lazy, self absorbed Christianity.

 May we rise up, and claim souls in the name of Jesus.

Let’s do this thang.

24 Hours alone in the Wilderness

24 Hours alone in the Wilderness.

Three days after arriving in Georgia, my alarm is buzzing. Its 5:30am. I don’t want to do to this. Do I really have to do this?

I roll out of my warm bed, and double check that I have all of my needed gear. Hiking boots? Check. Filled nalgene’s. Check. Sleeping bag, tent, rain gear, head lamp. Check, check, check and check. I know nothing of what my next four days will look like, expect,

“We will be hiking and tent camping out in the woods for 4 days. Be prepared for lots of walking and primitive living conditions.” 

Fast forward to a few hours later, and I’m out on the trail, in the foothills of the appalachian mountains. I’ve been given a large bag of trail mix, and told to make it last. This is my lunch for the next few days. I’m already exhausted from all of the crazy hustle and bustle of the days leading up to this trip. I just moved across the country after all! But I know that this will be good for me. I know that I will be challenged. I know that this will be hard. But I’m ready. I pumped myself up with Lacre this morning! Lets do this! I tried to imagine the worst possible, and told myself that it couldn’t possibly be any worse then that! 

I was wrong. 

We hiked for ten grueling hours that day. It rained most of the morning, and I remained wet the rest of the day.  about eight hours in, I found myself hiking the trail alone. Caught somewhere between the front of the group and the back. My knee was flared up, killing me every time I moved it. My hips shot sharp pain through me every step. My thirty pound backpack seemed to weigh at least a hundred. My mind was racing with everything I had just left behind in Michigan. What was I doing here? What did I just get myself into? 

“I am NOT going cry on the trail…I will NOT be that girl”… I probably cried for a good mile or so. And it wasn’t even because of my pain, or that fact that we still had a good, long ways to hike still. I can’t even explain it, but my mentors were right. There is just something about physical brokenness that brings about spiritual brokenness. Abba just totally wrecked me again. It seems he needs to do this with me on a regular basis.

“Make me to hear joy and gladness, let the bones which you have broken rejoice” 

Psalm 51:8.

An hour and a half later, I was caught up with the rest of my team, and we were embarking on the last leg of our journey to our camp spot. The last leg proved to be the craziest yet. It was getting dark. We came to a small beach on the side of the river, and then the trail just ended. I faced the river, knowing behind be was nothing but a steep hill, with crazy thick trees, and vines. I looked hopelessly to Josh (Fellow CGA apprentice) for direction. “This way!” he exclaimed, as we carefully made up way up and along the hill. Over and under trees. Crawling on hands and knees at some points. It was dark now, and I couldn’t really see much of anything more then a few feet in front of me. “This is insane!” I said out loud laughing. 

Finally we made it to our camp. Which was nothing more then A small clearing in the enchanted looking forest. We were next to the river, and I could hear the gentle rushing of the water. Thank you Jesus. We all slept under a tarp that night. But the next day, we started “Solo day”.  Twenty-four hours alone to be with Jesus. I strapped my pack back on and headed a little deeper into the woods. Set up my tent, and crawled inside. I really had no idea what I’d do with my entire day. I had my bible, journal, water bottle and trail mix. Thats it. 

“Okay Jesus, what do you want to do together today?”

It was the most beautiful time with the father. I rested in him. I mourned things that needed to be mourned. I surrendered everything again. I waited upon him. He just loved on me in crazy ways. He infused new dreams into me. Gave me freedom where I had set unnecessary boundaries in place, that were not of him. Then he brought me, once again to Ephesians, chapter one. Read this next part slowly, taking it all in.  

3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. 4 For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love 5 he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— 6 to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. 7 In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace 8 that he lavished on us. With all wisdom and understanding, 9 he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, 10 to be put into effect when the times reach their fulfillment—to bring unity to all things in heaven and on earth under Christ.

11 In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will, 12 in order that we, who were the first to put our hope in Christ, might be for the praise of his glory. 13 And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, 14 who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory.

15 For this reason, ever since I heard about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all God’s people, 16 I have not stopped giving thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers. 17 I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. 18 I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance his holy people, 19 and His incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength 20 he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, 21 far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come. 

I just sat there and reread it. Over and over again. In such awe of who God is, and the unbelievable things that he’s done for us. The things that are available to us here and now! How often to we doubt ourselves, and fail to live out our full responsibilities, bringing the Kingdom here and now?? Jesus Christ, has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in Christ!

Night eventually came, and with it the darkness. And rain. Lots of rain. The rain started coming into my tent. I was alone. I couldn’t sleep. My anxiety started rising. I cried out to Abba. 

“ You can do nothing apart from me, beloved.”

“ You can do nothing apart from me, beloved.”

“ You can do nothing apart from me, beloved.”

Now I challenge you. What are you trying to do on your own strength? What is Abba asking you to surrender? What do you need to put down, in order to pick up?

Ask Abba. He longs for it.

My first two weeks in Georgia

My first two weeks in Georgia

Greetings from the land of sweet tea and peaches!

My first two weeks here have been a crazy ride! I had the amazing opportunity to drive down to Georgia with my mom. Bless her heart. If I wasn’t sleeping, I was talking. The whole way down. Going on and on, verbally processing all of my excitement. I moved into my new house. I explored my new city! I went on a crazy intense hiking trip for four days. (Still processing some things that happened there. Blog post on that coming soon!).

 I met all of these awesome people who are just as crazy as I am! I went to the Japanese festival.   We had unbelievable times of worship, where the Holy Spirit just came and blew our socks off. People’s bodies were healed by just being in the room! I got wrecked some more. I got visions of just being drenched, like with water, but it was all the love of Jesus, all over me. Soaking into every conner of my body, spirit and soul. I’m entering into this new season with hands wide open, ready to receive all that Abba has for me.

My time here with CGA (Center for Global Action) is broken down into three main components: Apprenticeship, Discipleship, and Community.

I have been placed in the “Short term missions” department for my apprenticeship! This department of AIM (Adventures in missions) is responsible for any of our mission trips under a month long. I will be working here four half days per week! 

I have a personal disciple-er, (is that a word? It is now). named Betty. Who is also my house mentor.! I am really excited to be able to live with her, as she is the most beautiful and amazing woman, set on fire for the Kingdom!

Speaking of my house, we call it “The Nest”.  I share it with four awesome women, Betty, Lacey, Kellie, and Tayo! We had our first family dinner last night! These women are awesome. I am so blessed. 

Under both community and discipleship is my “Track” of study. I am in the “Worship track” Here one of their goals is to teach us how to cultivate a lifestyle of worship to our King. Our first gathering as a track was on Tuesday. We spend a gooooood long time laying hands on one another, praying awesome, big prayers, speaking words over each other. It was so life giving. There are no words to describe it.

Today we had our first classes. We’ll have two courses of study, and we’ll meet once a week. One of the classes I will be taking is all about discovering the calling of God in your life. We get one on one discipleship, along with some really, really awesome material to dig into. I cannot wait. Our other class is titled “Dangerous Jesus”. It’s challenging. It’s uncomfortable. It’s powerful. It’s truth. I’m pumped! 

I’m still in need of $3,200 for my funding in order to be here. I’d ask if you’d  join my ministry team! In prayer first of all. I need lots. :) If your able to donate financially? Awesome! You're an answer to lots of prayer. To learn about all the different ways you can give, click here: Donations for Brook

I’m ready to grow.

To be stretched.

To be challenged.

To fail forward.

To dive fully into what the lord has for me here.

To step outside of my comfort zone… Way out.

I’m ready to dwell at the feet Jesus.

Get ready world. Cause here I come.

When I don't feel worthy

When I don't feel worthy

One of the crazy things about God is that he doesn't ever leave us. Through all the messes, mistakes, sins, failures and crap, He is still right there with us. 

"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you" -Hebrews 13:5

The thing is, we leave Him.

I messed up. But not only that, I knew that it was wrong, and I did it anyways. 

The next couple of days roll around, and instead of following that loving tug on my heart to go and spend time with Jesus, I blow it off. I harden my heart, and go about my day.

Inside, I'm miserable. I'm hurting and broken. I'm vulnerable, and I start listening to satan's lies. and worst of all, I just really miss Jesus. My soul feels parched, and my spirit is weary. I just wanna be with Him.

But I don't feel worthy to be with Him.

I feel condemned. I feel like he's disappointed and angry with me. (I'm listening to lies, remember?). I went and put myself back into the bondage of sin. I listen, as satan twists verses of His holiness, and righteous anger, and I shudder inside. My heart longs for my Papa Abba. But I keep my distance. I'm unknowingly punishing myself. I deserve this hurt, and loneliness. 

All the while, He's calling out to me "Beloved, come back to me".

But all I see are my sin covered hands.

One afternoon, I was helping my mom watch a group of the most precious little girls, whom are super dear to my heart. The youngest had just had her first birthday, and I was playing on the living room floor with her. There was a big fan on the floor opposite me. She kept trying to craw to it, wanting to stick her tiny little fingers into the fast, rotating blades. I knew that doing so would hurt her, so I did everything I could to keep her from having to experience that pain. To her though, see was captivated by it, and it looked like a fun thing to do. After blocking her path, and picking her up to move her away, my beloved whisper to my heart,

"Daughter. Do you now love her any less? Do you no longer want to spend time with her because of her foolishness?"

I look down at this small child on my lap, with her big blue eyes glistening, and her face lit up with a big grin.

His grace hit me like the rush of a mighty river. Still he loves me. Loves me unlike anything in this universe can and ever will. Still he pursues me. Still he longs for me. Still he delights in me, and rejoices in me. 

Because I have been redeemed through the blood of Jesus Christ my Savior.

He sees me as holy, righteous and pure. Even when I feel like the very opposite of those things. 

The only thing stopping me, was me. I had confessed, He had forgiven me. I just hadn't forgiven myself. I allowed myself to stay away from my beloved. I did what satan wanted for me, and I stayed away, believing the lie that I was unworthy. 

The Lord brought me to these very powerful truths in His word, and I wanna challenge you to read them, and examine your own hearts. 

Are you avoiding being with the Lord, in the most intimate and beautiful way, because of your own guilt and shame? Because he's calling you back to Him. Run into His waiting, open arms.

"I formed you; you are my servant; you will not be forgotten by me. I have blotted out your transgressions like a cloud, and your sins like mist; return to me, for I have redeemed you." Isaiah 44:21-22

"I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you" -Jeremiah 31:3

"remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing!" Isaiah 43:18-19

"He will raise up your ruins… He will fulfill your purpose… He will go before you… He calls you by name… He equips you… He will make level all your ways… You are saved by an ever lasting salvation… Turn to Him and be saved." Isaiah 44, 45.

Eight ways I spent time with Jesus

Eight ways I spend time with Jesus.

"Downloads from Heaven are remarkable

 if you feel the heartbeat of Heaven and know what it is to be ruined by how much God loves all people on this earth,

 good and bad. The Father's heart is for humankind. His heart, if you have ever been to that intimate place and felt it beat for the lost, ruins your life…

The secret place is where we soak in His presence and hang out with God.

As desperate as you may be for his tangible presence, striving is not rest, so just rest in Him.Relax, breathe in his holy spirit, and let everything out".

-Beni Johnson,  Beautiful one, A walk with deeper intimacy with the one who created us.

Growing up in the church, I thought that I had a pretty good idea of what devotiontime was "suppose" to look like .

 It wasn't until this past year that God began to really reveal to me the vast diversity in His relationships with his other sons and daughters,
and how my relationship with Him was to be super unique.

  

I wanted to encourage, and really describe what my daily, set aside time with Him may look like.

Somedays it's all of these ways. Normally its a combination.

  

This is by no means a complete list. 

But these are some of the main ways I spend intimate time with my Beloved, Jesus.

  

1. Worship.

"Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus,

 let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire!"

Hebrews 12:28-29

I learned a long time ago that worship isn't about me. It's about praising the Holy of Holys.

Giving what is due to His Majestic name. His mercies are new every morning! Our God is a freaking consuming fire! I try to make worship a top priority everyday.

And when I say "worship" I'm talking, locked in a room. Completely alone. 

Sitting and belting my heart out to my King. Pouring out my everything at His feet.

2. Prayer.

"Pray without ceasing"

 -1st Thess 5:17

Prayer is nothing more then talking to God. How absolutely incredible is it that we can freely communicate with the King of Heaven and earth whenever, and wherever we are?! I pray we never take that lightly.

While praying, and being in consistent communication with the Lord all through out my day is so important.

 I also set aside special times to enter into a committed, and focused time of prayer.

 This is where I act as a intercessor for the broken, and hurting.

When I lay out my praise for Him. 

I lay out my requests, burdens, and I pray on behalf of my family and friends.

3. Listening prayer.

"My children will listen to my voice"

-Jesus, John 10:16

Listening prayer is where you go off by yourself, quiet your heart and mind, and wait to hear from heaven.

 It's different from my regular times of prayer.

 This is me sitting silent before the throne room of God. Expecting, waiting. 

This takes time, patience, and discipline to learn. Sometimes you feel as though nothing happens. But it is SO worth it. All of it!
 Because The Lord promises that we will find him, when we seek him

with all of our hearts. (Jer 29:13-14). 

This is where we learn to hear the heartbeat of heaven. The sound of Heaven touching earth.

4. Resting.

"Let us therefore strive to enter that rest, so that no one may fall by the same sort of disobedience"

Hebrew 4:9-11.

"My soul finds rest in God alone"

Psalm 62:1  

I go and rest in the presence of God almighty. Simple as that.

It's a time of refreshment, and rejoicing in who God is, and how he feels towards me. I just feel him loving on me like crazy during these times. 

Usually its so peace filled that I fall asleep, or "Taking A nap with Jesus" as I like to call it.

Rest in His love, His peace. Let the King of Glory play with your hair.

5. Reading/Studying  the bible.

"How can A young man keep his way pure? By living according to your word. With my whole heart I seek you: let me not wander from your commandments!
I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you."

Psalm 119:9-10

"Let our hearts be filled with the word of God. Let our eyes be fixed upon the word of God."

-Matthew Henrys Concise Commentary

These are the very words of life. This is where I learn of God's heart, His character. His plan,

and his ways. I learn of His love for me, and His heart for the lost, and the hurting.

These are the words of the Lord, they direct my very life.

Not only do I read it. I study it, memorize it, drink it up, meditate upon it. 

Daily. 

6. Listening to Podcasts.

"Give me understanding that I may keep your law and observe it with my whole heart, 

lead me in the path of your commandments, for I delight in it."

Psalm 119:34-35

Along with studying directly from God's word, I also love to snuggle up, and listen to a good podcast,

 filled with powerful truths. This is by no means a replacement for church.

But, it is an amazing tool for my continued growth, and pursuit of righteousness.

I especially love to use them along side my personal bible study, when I'm studying a specific topic, 

or portion of Scripture. Plus, they're totally free! (can't beat that!)

7. Journaling.

"But when I thought how to understand this, it seemed a wearisome task,

until I went into the sanctuary of God."

Psalm 73:16-18 

I'm not talking about the "dear diary, I love JC from NSYNC" kind of stuff that I wrote when I was nine.

I am talking about putting down on paper (or on your phone) your raw heart, getting vulnerable with yourself, jotting down what your
 learning, your struggles that day, your joys, sorrows and your triumphs! 

I don't journal as often as I should. But I am always super thankful that I did later on. Journaling is a super powerful way to process
what God is doing in your life, and heart. It's also very eye opening to go back and reread your old journal entries.

I've kept a journal from every past mission trip I've been on. 

It's amazing to look back upon your growth, and all of the things the Lord has faithfully

 brought you through!

If you don't journal now, I highly encourage you to start!

8. Dreaming.

"I have come that they may have life and have it abundantly!"

John 10:10

This last one may not make any sense to anyone but me and Jesus, and thats okay.

Like I said earlier, your relationship with Christ is unique to you, and you alone!

But for me, it's so awesome!

This is one of my favorites ways to be with Jesus.

 This looks different every time.

For example, the night before new years eve, this past winter. Jesus just asked me to sit with him and dream big, huge, abundant things for my life in 2014!

Then one time, it was dreaming up a vivd story of Christ Jesus redeeming me, as I was a poor woman out on the streets  covered in rags, then being transformed into a radiant princess, standing in the throne room of God almighty.

Once you fall in love with Jesus, spending time with him daily stops being a chore, or just another thing to add to the daily check list. 

It's something you long for.

It's something you need to fully live!

It will change your life forever, in the most beautiful, and glorious way possible.

"Bring me the sacrifice of your time: a most precious commodity. In this action-addicted world,  few of my children take time to sit quietly in my presence. But for those who do, blessingsflow like streams of living water. I, the one from who all blessings flow, am also blessed by our time together. This is a deep mystery; do not try to fathom it. Instead, glorify Me by delighting in me. Enjoy Me, now and forever!"

-Jesus Calling {August 2nd}

   

   

   

I'm packing for Indiana…What?!

I'm packing for Indiana…What?! 

I kept waking up in the middle of the night.

 This isn't normal for me. When the lights are out, so is Brook. See ya in the morning!  

But it kept happening night after night...

I know that my God is faithful. I know that he can provide. 

 But I was getting overwhelmed. Fundraising for CGA was starting to stress me out. 

But these feelings crept back in ever so slowly, I didn't ever realize that they were there.

Then one night I woke up at 3am, and my brains first reaction was to panic, stress, and try to figure out how I was going to get this accomplished.

But I refused. 

I gave it to God.

Then I immediately fell back into a peaceful sleep.

That following day, I got a text from an unknown number. 

Long story short, a family friend offered me a job.

But not just any job. She is literally making this job up for me. (What?!)

And she's invited me to stay in the guest room of her home, to stay with her and her family, in Indiana. 

As a means to raise some money for my discipleship program at CGA. 

She is one of the most amazing women that I have ever had the honor of knowing,

and I am so excited for the time that I'll be spending with her. 

She has been more then an angel about everything already, and I haven't even gotten there yet!

So, as the kingdom kid that I am. I quit my other job early, and I'm packing up, and moving on down!

This is the most unbelievable offer to me. My mind is blown (again). All glory to Jesus… 

He made this crazy big dreamer, yet he just loves to open up the floodgates of heaven, and bless me with things better then I could have ever imagined!   

The plan for now is two weeks down there, and we'll see from there.

 I leave Sunday afternoon!

So there is the quick update on my crazy good life. Stay tuned for more to come!

Blessings!

-Brookie

  Kingdom kid.